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Friday, October 19, 2007

you've won.
i've lost.

fuck this blog.
i dont wanna post le.
bye.

5:25 PM
im alone; ~~im emo~~;

haiz.
why do so many quotes and phrases come to my mind when im emo.

i wanted to post everyth out. everyth i felt, and stuff.
to be honest i thought it was stupid, since nobody cared anyway.

i still wanted to, but now i just dont wanna. i just, dont feel like telling anybody how i feel, when i can just live anti-socially.
i really duno wad's going on in my life..
everyth seems so artificial.
and so easily broken and destroyed.
maybe because it wasn't there in the first place..

i have so many things to say. but i dun wanna say it anymore. i now know why i dont wanna blog.
seriously,
i seriously dont want to blog.

i just wanna live by myself. i find joy in doing things away from everyone else.
i dont want to tell my troubles to people,
i dont want to share my joys with people,
i dont want to live with people.
because people are all the same.
and.
i dont think i wanna continue anymore.

everytime i think of all the things running through my head,
and i think of a place to let it all out,
and then i get put off when i blog.
simply because.
my life has seriously been ruined.
and spoiled,
by the world.

i am going to go off now,
and i know this post hardly means anything,
and i've probably wasted another few minutes of my life.
but i dont care if i waste these few minutes,
because i have nothing to live for anyway.

if you want to ask me now.
i can tell you.
this phrase is really common,
and many people just say it for the sake of self-pity,
but dont take a look around to see the good things in life.
do you know why i KNOW im not one of them?
ill just give you one reason, out of the many. which is enough.
those people out there,
i know that they think that way.
but as for me?
nobody cares about how i feel now.

im trying to look on the bright side here.
so let me end with this.

if i were to die now,
i'd have no regrets.

4:53 PM
im alone; ~~im emo~~;

Sunday, September 16, 2007

o.o you guys must be so shocked why i post 2 days in a row. lala. or maybe you all dun even read-.- but anyway, i didn't blog cos i wanted to? my sunday's still damn freaking busy-.- haiz.. oh well. still gonna blog anyway.

just finished half of the maths paper? the other half i duno =/ and i counted my marks and for EOY ill get around 47 marks? wow. zzz.
and im still left with loads of revision for chinese and science tests next week o.o hmm guess ill only do one of them today..

so now's my break for an hour. lol. yeah guess ill just slack away, like wad i always do during 2day holidays..
oh i've got quizzes! lots and lots-.- but ill do just 2?
*haha see i did 1 more than i promised(x
dont really think this one would be lame as ytd's.. hmm.

1.Honestly what color is your shirt?
blue. wow heng never ask underwear =X haha.
2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
her.
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
answering a question.
4. Honestly, have you ever been in love ?
yeah.
5. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
is eating bad. i did alot of that..
6. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
yeah. its cool wad xD
7.Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
shipei?
8.Honestly, are you jealous of somebody right now?
now, not really ba.
9. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
stuff that aren't happy lor.
10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
nope.
11. Honestly, do you use anyone?
nah.. ... ... =/
12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
yep..
13. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't like?
lol yes.
14. Honestly, do you love someone very much?
of course(:
15. Honestly, does anyone like you?
how i know..

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY
1. What do you do when you're mad?
vulgarities?
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
duno sia.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
guess so..
4. Do you swear when you're mad?
who doesn't.
5. When was the last time you really cried?
haha dun wan say :D
6. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
nah, i dont sleep at all.
7. What usually makes you cry?
sad stuff. lol.
8. Are you normally a happy person?
dun tink so, but im really happy when i am(:
9. Does being with your friends makes you happy?
guess so, but not really too.
10. When people say they think you are handsome/pretty, do you get happy?
haha jason said i was uglier than him before :D cute guy.

ok that's all. hmm yeah bye everyone!(:

2:48 PM
im alone; ~~im emo~~;

Saturday, September 15, 2007

o.o err hello people?
hmm, i havent been blogging, and i guess im blogging now?
a dead blog still can get updated cant it.

oh guess wad? its my 350th post! lala :D lols.
yeah and i guess. life so far ain't that bad..
with weird stuff, but yeah its fine?

i've got an announcement to make : im learning drums no more): zz. and so much for guitar too since my parents are such childish bitches. so all i have now is piano that i have already half forgotten =/ sad, but i guess there's nth i can do about it now, so NEXT PARAGRAPH! O.O

ok. this weekend got quite alot of homework.. luckily i dont need to go for family gathering liao. heh. but ill be home with my parents. which is like super sian): oh well, guess ill be studying or watching tv..

so i guess i'd better get to important stuff and finish it so i can study! lala. which is, my first quiz for a very very long time! lala. hmm tagged by shipei de?:D in case you all forgot, i do quiz always damn lame 1-.-

1. In two words, explain yesterday:
before today o.o
2. Who made u smile today?
her.
3. What were u doing this morning at 8?
sleeping.
4. What were u doing 15 minutes ago?
blogging o.o
5. Something that happened to u in 1985?
i decided to hibernate until 2007-.-
6. Last thing someone else said to you?
byebye!
7. What was ur answer?
byebye! lol.
8. Worst thing on television:
news =X
9. What was in your e mail today?
i havent went in since i hibernated in 1985-.-
10.How many different beverages have you drank today?
one? mango juice.
11. What is ur favorite part of the day?
the part that doesn't suck.
12. Your current To-do list?
blog, study, slack, sleep.
13. Where is ur best friend right now?
i dont have a best friend): ain't that sad. lol.
14. What color is ur toothbrush?
blue?
15. What are u wearing right now?
haha can i answer this after i get dressed.
16. Any plans for Friday night?
sai la got that mooncake festival thing in sch-.-
17. Least favorite place to shop?
perfume department? o.o
18. Things u bought today?
nth.
19. Last gift you received?
duno sia o.o think eugene loh gave me his gutter but i rejected it =/
20. Who gave you that?
eugene loh lah.. zz quizzes are so stupid.
21. What made you sad today?
my parents stayin at home):
22. What can make you happy?
her? and only her.
23. Beauty is:
what you see when you're in love.
24. Describe your key chain:
the mickey mouse came out =X
25. Where do u keep ur change?
wallet?
26.Are u happy with ur life?
well, guess so?(:
27. What are u thinking now for someone you love?
i miss you? lala.
28. If someone you love forgets you and think your're disturbing to him/her then how would you feel?
why this question so long ah. lol of cos SAD la..
29. Person u trust the most?
her.
30. what day is it today?
saturday.
31. what are you going to do after this?
click 'PUBLISH'.

there it is. hmm dun tink alot of ppl will read hor): but nvm yeah. so yep, cya guys! happy holidays:D

day and night, all about you.

4:13 PM
im alone; ~~im emo~~;

Saturday, September 08, 2007

o.o i havent blogged in a long time, as usual. and my blog's still dead):

haiz and the hols are over soon.

i guess im supposed to be happy now, yeah i guess, im happy..

ok today my post will just be pics and captions? cos they are impt and i have no time to blog-.- yeah but i guess ill finish 5 quizzes in the next week? possibly 2 weeks too =X

lala. ok first i shall post the ones that i didn't intend to post?? o.o but as you can see, cornelius has been asking me for a week liao. so yeah SORRY blackdude.

O.o apparently he like's being stupid.

yirong's the one with the lame shirt anyway(:

alright dont have much time, but ill post some pics. haha guess who i took them with =X

DONUT factory o.o

and then after lots of eating (and dripping o.o) we got this. lala.

alright i completed this! haha in 350secs(: you know what i did it for?

ok i think that's all i gonna post. there's more, and they're really spastic. but i still think they're nice(: lala. wanna post also no time liao, so bye guys! happy hols?

i guess im supposed to be happy now, yeah i guess, im happy..

or maybe i just dont want things to get bad.

maybe i should just keep quiet? and smile because you're happy(:

4:38 PM
im alone; ~~im emo~~;

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

i dont know why..
i've tried my best.

i always try my best. for everyone to be happy.
with whatever i try for.
when things are right, im always at the side of everything.
and when things go wrong, it all falls on me.

i really dont understand. and i guess.
all i wanted to know was that.
someone could actually be touched by how hard i tried.

i hope my trying paid off, anyway.
i wont give up.

10:39 PM
im alone; ~~im emo~~;

Saturday, September 01, 2007

ok. sch hols have started.. and i guess my slacking level has just rosed all the way up..

im just here to post a short post, because i dont have much time left to waste my life on =/ cornelius wanted me to post some pictures, zzz but im not really free now. just felt like posting this short post, for my psch friends whom i didn't get to see ytd?

yeah i guess. sec sch's really diff from psch, and duh everyone knows that. and i guess though all of us have went our seperate ways into each of our sec schs, we're still e same ppl once we're together. when we relive all those days where we were all tgt, with nth but childish minds just wanting to be happy.
damn i miss them. and damn i hate sec sch..

so i missed the opportunity to see them again-.- and i guess i hope i can see them really soon.. but come to think of it, hardly of them ever tag again. and i guess they wont be able to read this.. kinda sad huh..
but im really thankful, to all of you guys.
you guys make secondary school seem so dammit fucking shitty(:

then i think again. and i guess i have sth just as good, if not better, to be my everything.
girl i love you. and you mean the world to me.
im more than glad that we're together,
im thankful that we're together. forever.

would you please make me feel special?

3:35 PM
im alone; ~~im emo~~;

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

o.o ok firstly, i know i was supposed to blog on monday. lol but 2 times in 4 days also not bad ma(x

o.o right so i have a few min more to blog. actually just came online to go acp for science notes. im studying hard.. yeah then did a lil blogsurfing lor. after a very very long time. lol. but it seems like nobody misses me on their blogs): wth luh i say hear also nobody will read or care =/ zz. k wadever..

yeah ill go slp ltr i guess. or maybe ill study or sth. still need to print the science notes.. and i have quizzes and need to update my ipod. wth im seriously damn busy.. haiz why am i even saying all this.

ok i think im getting really stressed liao. so im just not gonna care about anything else.
and if you guys wanna know sth, my day freaking sucked today-.-
and nobody was there.
nobody is here.
maybe that's why im so damn stressed.

dammit. i duno wad to do now.
bye.

4:27 PM
im alone; ~~im emo~~;

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